The Love We Shared 💖

Learning to see the love that carried you

What if the love you've been searching for

was already there?

Baby Hazel - The Love Has always been there

Part of the healing journey is learning to see the love that was present in our lives all along. Many of us get so stuck in the trauma and the pain that we forget that love was there, too. Maybe it came from a parent, a grandparent, a teacher, a friend, or a nana who watched over you while your parents worked.

As I began my own healing journey many moons ago, 🌝 I was deeply stuck in the pain → replaying it, reliving it, unable to look past it. 🥺

I saw the abuse. The yelling. The screaming. The police. The control. The sadness. Like so many of us, I believed the only way out was to get a good job, make a lot of money, and everything would be alright.

That’s what society teaches us: chase external validation, chase money, and life will fall into place.

But, honestly that’s not the case. That just keeps us disconnect from our bodies, our dreams, and love.

To an extent, money can help. But when you don't deal with your past, it follows you into your present and your future.

The story keeps replaying. The money may arrive, but the pain grows louder in the body. The mind starts to feel like it's unraveling. You may find yourself attracting drama or retreating into isolation.

YASSSSS YOU ARE LOVE!

So where is the love?

It starts with you. It starts with being willing to see your whole story 📖 → not just the trauma, but the love that was woven through it too.

It’s there. I know it is, because you are love.

Yes, you 🫵🏽 reading this right now.

YOU ARE LOVE!

You love others so deeply, yet sometimes it feels like you are unworthy of receiving it yourself. I’ve been there. You are not alone. 🫂

These are 3 ways I started to see the love within myself again:

1. Feel it. I had to allow the sadness, anger, emotions to surface 🙀 really feel it, not push it down. This made space within my body to start receiving and feeling more love.

2. Forgive it. I had to forgive my parents, my grandparents, and all those who caused harm. Including myself. This allowed me to see the lesson from each experience, no longer carrying the burden (yes, that invisible weight you carry on your back) 😬

3. Release it. 🍃 I had to give myself permission to let go. Reminding myself over and over again: “I release what no longer serves me.” That meant letting go of people, experiences, spaces, beliefs, and ideas that were keeping me trapped in survival. Really letting go to start connecting to unconditional love.

As I repeated this path, something beautiful began to happen. The lessons inside the experiences were presenting themselves with so much more ease. I started to see the love that had always been there.

• My dad playing basketball with me as a kid.

• My mom rubbing my back while I rested on her lap.

• My grandma teaching me how to pray.

• My nana taking care of me when my parents were working.

• Teachers who mentored me and believed in me.

• Friends who kept me going when home life was hard.

• Music and dance that kept me rooted in my joy.

The love was always there. I just had to move through the darkness to finally see the light.

That doesn’t mean pretending the hardships didn’t happen. It doesn’t mean erasing the wounds. What it means is this: when you acknowledge those wounds, when you meet them with love, tenderness, and compassion, they begin to heal, and what they leave behind is the lesson, the love.

The Garden

You Are A Seed

Healing is about growing out of the darkness and toward the sun. Just like a seed, we must navigate the dark 🪴 wiggling our way through the soil until we finally break the surface and push into new skies.

Visualize with me…

A seed in the dark. No light, no map, just the weight of the earth above it. But something inside says keep going. So it reaches, inch by inch, until the first green appears. 🌱 Tender, alive, and from that one brave push, something big and majestic is born. It starts to becomes a flower, a tree, a plant, or maybe even a magnificent avocado tree.

And here is the thing, friends → that seed doesn’t do it alone. It needs soil. It needs water. It needs sun. It needs the wind, the bees 🐝 🐝🐝 , the whole ecosystem. Without the support and love of the other elements, it remains just a seed.

✨ The same is true for us. 🌻

I couldn’t be where I am today without the help I received from teachers, coaches, healers, friends, and family. I had to call in the love and be open to receive it, which is another challenge within itself. I also had to invest in support so I could learn how to love myself. Key work here is LOVE MYSELF. I knew how to love others, but myself 🙅🏽‍♀️ I wasn’t taught how to do that growing up, it took time to unlearn what love wasn’t and what love is.

I had to choose self-development. I had to choose evolution. I had to choose self-love.

It’s a choice, fam EVERYDAY. And it is the best choice I have ever made.

Today, I am more at peace than I have ever been. More connected. More loved. More abundant than I ever allowed myself to notice. Life is rich, and it just keeps getting better.

I see how showing up for myself is changing everything around me. Because I am full, I can pour into my community from overflow not from empty. I can love more. I can show others how to love themselves, too.

There is still much to learn. I am forever a student of life. But I am honored to also step into the role of teacher 🤓 to walk alongside others on this journey.

A moment of reflection

🌻 Who showed up for you when you were young?

🌻 Who was your sun, your water, your soil?

🌻 What is one way you show yourself love?

Are you ready to see your whole story?
The pain and the love?

My intention is to support BIPOC Women and Queer Souls on their self-love journey. My focus is on helping you navigate through the darkness so you can feel lighter, more connected, and ready to receive love.

Through energy healing: Reiki, Shamanic Healing, and Intuitive Guidance → I support you in shifting your energetic, emotional, mental, and physical bodies, and connecting more deeply with your Higher Self and your spirit team.

I offer 1:1 sessions and journeys that allow you to dive deeper inside a sacred container.

As I shared in my previous post, I am offering 10% off all wellness offerings for Long Beach Pride Month. This offer ends May 31st at 5pm. If you are a new client, please schedule a Connection Call first so we can make sure we are in alignment.

This is my gift to you 💖 because I truly believe we all deserve to be loved and supported.

And if this is your first time connecting with these modalities, no worries. I will be here to guide you the whole way. 👩🏽‍🤝‍👩🏾

If you’re ready to step into this chapter grounded in love, schedule a Connection Call with me.

It has been an honor to share my story, my love, and my wisdom with you. May you have a wonderful week filled with many beautiful moments.

Con Mucho Amor,

Hazel Montserrat